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Lori Prechel
Most of the poems track her emotional journey from hanging on to letting go of a relationship. Lori says she writes better when she is in a sad mood. However, she is currently at work on another collection in an attempt to reflect more positive experiences. Two of the poems in the book are not a part of the relationship theme. One was written for her Father for Father’s Day. A second, the opening poem of the book, deals with an abusive relationship which Lori says is based on reality but not a father- and-daughter situation as described in the poem. The book contains 101 poems and is priced at $10. It can be purchased at Room of One’s Own Book Store in Madison, the UW—Whitewater Book Store and online. |
Breaking Away
Do
you even notice I’m gone
When I go away
Do you even feel the silence
When I’ve got nothing to say
So concerned about everyone else
You don’t even care about me
All the pain that I feel
Is something you fail to see
You say I have stupid reasons
For all the things I do
But what you don’t realize
Is I do them because of you
I’m trapped under your control
Forced to live a life I don’t need
I feel like I’m suffocating
You’ve taken all the air to breathe
I need to take a break from this
I need to rest in peace
But every time I’m ready to go
You make me not want to leave
So again I’m trapped here
With nowhere to go
I’m searching for the answers
To all the questions I need to know
But I’m always running in circles
There’s never a way out
You leave me feeling vulnerable
Insecure and full of doubt
But I know one day it’ll happen
When I’ll finally get away
So for now I’ll keep waiting
Hoping I can recognize that day.
* * * * *
Regrets
I’m
sorry I never got to tell you
All the things I’ve wanted to say
I’m sorry I never got to do my own thing
That it always had to be your way
I’m sorry that you never understood
How important you were to me
I’m sorry I couldn’t be the kind of friend
That you always wanted me to be
I’m sorry for doing all the things
You never wanted me to do
I’m sorry for caring too much
When you didn’t want me too
I’m sorry for all the times
You hurt me deep inside
I’m sorry for all the thoughts
That have gone thru my mind
I’m sorry for the laughter
That always had to hide
I’m sorry for all the tears
My eyes had to cry
I’m sorry for listening
When you wanted to talk
I’m sorry for holding you up
When you didn’t have the strength to walk
I’m sorry for all the feelings
That ran way too deep
I’m sorry for all the nights
That because of you I couldn’t sleep
I’m sorry I wanted to make
What we had last
I’m sorry I can’t let go
Of the things in the past
I’m sorry for saying these things
When they’re not what you wanted to hear
I’m sorry for being afraid of you
When that’s something I shouldn’t fear
I’m sorry that when I look for you
I can’t find you anywhere
I’m sorry that when I need you most
You are never there
I’m sorry for apologizing
When I’m not the one to blame
I’m sorry that I had to be the one
To live with all this pain
I’m sorry that no matter what
I still wanted to be your friend
I’m sorry that after all this
You still wanted it to end