1.

Fragmented Moments
Knocking in my head,
Keeping me from focusing
On what needs to be done,
For me to keep grounded
Stress is the killer I know this,
But still my life is out of control
Money monsters seer away,
At the events facing me
I want joy, fun and laughter,
The icing on the cake
Children everywhere,
In every corner of every room
Knocking in my brain,
Tells me no peace today
Love surpasses all, except a mum
Who so tired and confused,
Cannot remember why
Smells of incense fill the small room
As I struggle, to maintain my balance
I light candles listen to my music,
Finally become me,
For a few rare moments
Remembering I embrace me,
Covered in light
Healing old wounds, rejuvenating self.
Power channels through my body
Ions flowing freely mixing with neurons
Protected by myelin,
Feeling energy surge
Through a broken body
And wounded spirit.
Warm comforting arms
Wrap around me
Warm words of prayer
Chant through our bodies
Spirit filled healing encourages me
Protects me from the demons.
And tonight when I lay in bed
Wounds open and naked,
I will turn to my lover
Feel his warmth, his steady breathing
And melting into him I will know
There is nothing to fear anymore.
For there is life and living
Not a clock to keep time of the hours
Just fragmented moments
Entwined with hope.

2.

Where from a distance
Where, from a distance
Can you kill a spirit?
Kill a thought, or a dream
Where, from a distance
Can you crawl out of me?
Turning a dream into a nightmare
Control me, you threatened
And you have done so
Subtly, almost beyond belief,
Until night sweats
Awaken me, to remind me
Of you, and the past.
I cringe at the thought,
Of resting my head against a pillow,
Knowing that your venom
Will ooze into my thoughts
And my nightmares will return
With the vengeance that you promised,
In your hate filled, controlling mind,
And you called this love?

© 2001 Yvonne Allen